Class of 200-whine!

So I'm just going to cut to the chase, i don't have time or patience for an epic and creative story line right now.

I am highly PISSED! I should be walking down the aisle right now! in my cap and gown!
rocking a beautiful SIA stole some chapter sister or boyfriend had bought for me. Getting congratulatory flowers, teddy bears, and wall posting. I should have my degree and an updated resume with millions of interviews. I should but i don't. Instead everyone i went into college with and others that are close to me are experiencing this. All i feel is complete jealousy and wrath!

I never had to fight for my education. It's always been there, never had trouble paying for school or getting good grades. Until college that is. I HATE explaining to people why I'm not in school or why i may not go back any time soon. I just don't have the money. My mom is working a minimum wage job. I can't find a decent job for shit right now and I'm sinking in a crazy debt with creditors and such.

I also HATE people that measure your success by your education. I am starting to believe education is BULLSHIT!(Penn and Teller can do an episode out of it). You take out loans for 4-6 years for an education to get you a top 'job'. Once you land that job you have become an official slave for those student loans.

Whatever I'm just bitter. It's harder having an amazing boyfriend who is accomplishing so much and your still stuck there(karma sucks huh loll). I feel sometimes like I'm not good enough for him. I don't even tell him about all the interviews or anything like that because when i don't get the job i don't want him looking at me like a failure. Especially when he goes to an interview and boom he lands the job no problem.

That used to be me...what happened?

The reason i have become completely MIA is because for 1. my sorority takes up much money, i don't have the money to go to dinner every week or drinking and all that. 2. my friends/sisters don't understand what I'm going through, they get pretty judgemental and hard on me sometimes. I know it because they want the best but too many questions is annoying! 3. Its graduation season...waiting for all these cap n gown hoopla to go down

Some things that i have accomplished:

1. I've been getting a decent amount of income off of my designs
2. I got accepted into School of Visual Arts Summer-Entry program
3. I finally got my permit and I'm enrolling to take my classes n tests soon
4. I also registered for my passport, hopefully going to the Bahamas this summer.(free cruise =) )
5. I built myself a room in my moms house and threw out massive amounts of crap
6. I've been cooking a lot more instead of spending whack money on fast food.
7. I have not given up on finding a job!!!!!!