My Reality

So...after working 13hrs you would think one would knock right into a comatose sleep. Not me. I haven't slept in weeks, like a real sleep. I work almost 70hrs a week, and i still can't avoid my reality. And there is the underlying problem.

My reality:
1. Losing people that at a point were important in my life, one way or another.

2.Watching my aunt getting closer to heaven everyday and everyone miserable because of it.

3. Losing my main financial supplier because of the economy aka Bush sucks!

4. Having letters come in the mail and incoming calls from creditors, loans, and other debts everyday.

5. Knowing that all I had was less than a year to get my degree and not being able to do much about it until i pay $11,000.

6. Working back at foot locker, I never wanted to go backwards...ever.

7. Sometimes carrying the weight of your own struggles and still helping and listening to others issues trying to help them..and give them clarity while your dying inside.

8. People not recognizing your pain. I don't really cry or act out much. I just feel it..inside..all the time. I'm not as strong as I put out to be, sometimes I need a shoulder and a tissue too.

9. Hiding behind busy work days and such so I don't remind myself of....

10. ...my reality.