Ex-Communication

So a little background:

about a month ago me and my ex ended the relationship..or did we?

We definitely erased the title and for about 3 weeks we were good.

No speaking or seeing each other during that time.

I was loving life and i realized i didnt miss him as much as i thought i would.

I was so proud of how i dealt with the break up

and how strong ive become in relationships.

I continued my single life as if it had never seized and

as if me and..who?...ever existed.

Then of course the inevitable rendez-vous

on what would have been our 2-months of being official "anniversary."

Of course it started out friendly and just jokes being thrown, but eventually

our old habits and the comfort we felt with each other

began to break down the walls of pride and shatter the stubbornness.

I felt as if we were better than ever before.

For a split second i forgot he was my 'ex'.

I forgot we even had 'communication issues'.

It felt as natural as breathing being with him.

And for that split second i wished i wouldn't wake up.

I wished even more, that he wouldn't either.

That night was only lived that once..

We woke up.

Ex-Communication

You’re the bluest sky

You’re the biggest lie

You’re the greenest grass

You’re all about getting ass

You’re feeling so right

As we do wrong tonight

You make me so happy

You get me fucking angry

I’ve become your addiction

You’re my biggest contradiction

I was your lesson to learn

You were my bridge to burn

Memories replay in flashbacks

Feelings we try to fight back

Out of sight, out of mind

Come in sight, lose our minds

Cross the line of a lover and a friend

Seems like this relationship has no end

Time to stop the cycle before it gets worse

Got to find the cure to this inevitable curse

So we give one last hug...one last kiss

Such a shame it all comes down to this

So sad it ended so fast

I thought we would last

But I have a career to pursue

And you have maturing do to…

I think we’re better off this way…

And maybe, just maybe...one day…

After Effects:

As predicted me and him wont ever be again. Its funny,

After that one night i held him so high..as simultaneously he sunk so low

its ok. it happens and there's always other men out there.

I know because he was once my savior

from a broken heart i thought id never mend.

He helped me forget and he helped me believe.

So guess what? I have not one doubt,

that another can help me forget and help me believe.

I just have this small hope that he comes back and realizes everything

before its too late..